I am back home now. Back to being reminded of what it feels like to be inadequate. It's enough to make me want to stay in bed, but every morning I crawl out all the same. I wonder whether it's really that much fun to be retired. It must be. It better be.
This morning I added to my iGoogle page the weather for Calgary, AB. Boy will be there for the next few months, and I thought it would be nice to know what kind of weather he's getting. After all, in a few weeks he will be the only person who will have worse weather than I do. I might need such taunting opportunity to lift my spirits. Many times today I caught myself hoping that it would get warmer there (webpage showed a high of 44F). I don't know why. It's not like he wouldn't know to put on layers and jacket. Maybe in my mind he's still my little brother. Takut beku pulak budak ni karang...
Ok, so a little personal discovery I stumbled upon in the last few weeks. You know how people ask "What makes you tick?" For a long time, I don't have an answer to this question. But now I do. Obsession. I think this even Nils would vouch for. I've heard people say life is a series of random occurrences. But for me, it's a series of mini-obsessions. I go happily from one obsession to another, regardless of whether it benefits me or someone else. So when I'm scouring the internet to get info for someone, it's not so much because I'm trying to help them. It's only because I'm feeding my obsession. It really does make me happy. Some of my happiest moments are when I'm obsessing on something, be it work, pictures, budget, flight tickets, or whatever. Hai bertapa lah screwed up nya pala otak ku. :p Whatever floats your boat, right? I wonder if the next time I go for a job interview, is this something I can share with the interviewer? Will it sound too psychotic?
This morning I added to my iGoogle page the weather for Calgary, AB. Boy will be there for the next few months, and I thought it would be nice to know what kind of weather he's getting. After all, in a few weeks he will be the only person who will have worse weather than I do. I might need such taunting opportunity to lift my spirits. Many times today I caught myself hoping that it would get warmer there (webpage showed a high of 44F). I don't know why. It's not like he wouldn't know to put on layers and jacket. Maybe in my mind he's still my little brother. Takut beku pulak budak ni karang...
Ok, so a little personal discovery I stumbled upon in the last few weeks. You know how people ask "What makes you tick?" For a long time, I don't have an answer to this question. But now I do. Obsession. I think this even Nils would vouch for. I've heard people say life is a series of random occurrences. But for me, it's a series of mini-obsessions. I go happily from one obsession to another, regardless of whether it benefits me or someone else. So when I'm scouring the internet to get info for someone, it's not so much because I'm trying to help them. It's only because I'm feeding my obsession. It really does make me happy. Some of my happiest moments are when I'm obsessing on something, be it work, pictures, budget, flight tickets, or whatever. Hai bertapa lah screwed up nya pala otak ku. :p Whatever floats your boat, right? I wonder if the next time I go for a job interview, is this something I can share with the interviewer? Will it sound too psychotic?
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